Sometimes you have to take a break from things you love. It’s just how it is. It feels weird, but it’s totally normal, and totally okay.
I’ve seen a lot of hiatus posts that are overwhelmingly apologetic, and I completely understand where they come from. I am very, very bad at letting myself take breaks, and I have a tendency to feel guilty for taking time for myself in any capacity. Which is silly, because, hello! We’re all people! We all need rest! It’s only natural. All that being said, you don’t need to tell apologize or feel bad about all that!
Many of us place a lot of weight on our blogging. Irina wrote about this not too long ago in more detail, but quite a bit of emotional energy into such a seemingly relaxed hobby, and not just from the actual act of writing/finding time to write. There’s a lot of self-esteem stuff tied in – you get the rush of getting comments and likes, and that distinct sense of validation that comes with getting them. And, of course, the disappointed pang when a post you put a lot of work into ends up flopping.
Blogging also comes with a weird sense of responsibility. Most of us are here for fun, not for job/money-making purposes, so there’s not anything huge at stake, but it’s still really easy to get caught up in the need to create content. Personally, I have a goal of writing two posts a week, and while I’m almost positive no one is keeping tabs and flipping out when I don’t post my second piece at exactly 8pm on Thursday, I still feel really bummed out when I don’t make my personal deadline. So, when you reach a point in your life where you need to take a break and miss multiple posts, it does end up feeling like you’re failing in sense. But… taking a break isn’t a failure at all. In fact, it’s healthy and mature and probably the best thing you can do for your blog and for yourself!
You totally never have to apologize for taking time off, especially not from a hobby. There’s nothing worse than overexerting yourself to the point that something you once loved feels like a chore. It’s okay, we all have work and stress and other Real Life Things. Take care of those Things! No one is going to be angry with you for prioritizing yourself over keeping up with your blog. There are other aspects of life that are much harder to take breaks from (like, for example, work or your family) so by all means, take the breaks you can get! In the long run, it’ll likely improve your craft because you’ll be coming back clear-headed, refreshed, and ready to love the blogging process again.
That being said, I think I’m going to take a little break. Nothing too crazy, probably just a week or two to clear my head. I’ve mentioned in passing that I’ve struggled with mental health issues, and my brain was at peak shittiness during my last few years at school (this was before I started this site). Things have been much, much better since then, but I’ve felt myself slipping into some old Bad Brain habits that I want to break before I actually spiral into something worse.
One of these bad habits is placing too much weight on being “productive.”
I’m not very good at, like, feeling my feelings, so when I start to slip into a bad mindset, I automatically default to purposely overloading myself with projects and responsibilities, I do this so that I become too invested in other things to acknowledge that I’m feeling bad about Real Life Things. I always skate through and finish (most of) the things I set out for myself, but I end up overwhelmed and will beat myself up for not accomplishing everything I set out to do. It’s not a very healthy process, and then all those bottled feelings ultimately catch up to me, anyways. Escapism through writing is great and all, but that’s not really what’s happening here. It’s more like unhealthy avoidance. And I don’t want to let myself go through that funky cycle again, so I’m just going to kick back and let all those lofty goals go for now.
On a less dramatic note, I really have been wanting to write more involved things and work through some backlogs, and trying to come up with stuff to write every week while also trying to work on my bigger ~passion projects~ is frankly pretty exhausting, even aside from the Bad Brain tendencies. I totally got overly ambitious this month, and forgot that I don’t dedicate all of my free time to blogging – sometimes I go outside, too. I think taking a minute to myself will let me collect some of my thoughts and let me plan ahead, but at a more relaxed pace. Hopefully, it’ll make my stuff better in the end.
So, yeah, I’ll be taking a little break, but I’ll still exist on Twitter and will definitely still log in to read all your great posts and junk…I’ll probably still post if some crazy anime news comes out (and crazy anime news is always coming out), but it’ll be a bit more infrequent while I get some stuff in order.
I got nervous about taking time off, but then I thought about it some more and told myself all the things I generally tell other bloggers who announce they’re taking time off – it’s okay, take your time, enjoy your life, and let yourself return refreshed and ready to write again! There’s nothing to be sorry or embarrassed about, everyone understands! Enjoy your rest, and I’ll see you again soon!