Content warning for mentions of sexual assault, eating disorders, and some personal PTSD experiences involving intrusive thoughts and panic attacks. I know I am having a bad mental health day when I get the song “Angels of Porn II” stuck in my head. Panic will start to bubble up, clawing beneath my skin with a … Continue reading Finding Catharsis in Nicole Dollanganger’s “Angels of Porn II”
“The most important thing becomes control. Engaging with it on your own terms. Anything to not feel helpless.” – Daisy Tonner, The Magnus Archives Content warning for mentions of violence, sexual assault, and some personal PTSD experiences involving dissociation and panic attacks. Despite being a sexual assault victim, and despite being someone who struggled with … Continue reading Having trauma doesn’t mean you can only consume mild, boneless art.
Holy shit, does writing become less fun when you’re doing it for WORK. Especially when you have absolutely no creative control. Every client would say they accepted pitches, and I’d pitch something that seemed to fit their site, and they’d veto it pretty much immediately. Which, hey, fine, but like – don’t pretend you’re giving me a say! Just give me my assignment, pay me my meager fee, and move on!
I marathoned a comedy today, and I think I'm going to be okay. Sometimes, you just have to let yourself enjoy things. It's all you can do in this hellscape of a life, right?
I enjoy mapping out my own taste-makers in my head: it’s fun to think about how one thing I liked as a kid would kick-start a full investigation into a whole genre, a whole niche, a whole world. When I was a child, anime inadvertently opened a door into a world of hip hop, J-rock, noise rock, and more for me.